He Who Cannot Be Named

decisions

Hello ppl...

right now i´m not doing so good with my girlfriend., from my point of view, ´cause i´m not getting as much as i would like to. i think she´s getting as much as she want´s, but i also have to think about myself, so, right now you could say that i´m not happy.

i´m still with her. ´cuase i have something with her, although small it may be, it´s something and i have nothing with no one else so i sthick twith what i have. but it´s not enough. i need more, i need to feel like i´m needed, like someone is thinking about me, that i´m important to someone. not just to your brothers anr sisters, or your parents, but to someone else, that you didn´t know more than a few weeks ago, and now is important to you. that you feel something.

i "love" my girlfriend, but right now, i feel like she doens´t want to be with me, that she doen´t want to be alone with me, and she feels kinda anoyed when whe talkeds with me, although whe hides it well, it´s not good enough and i can tell that she´s not thrilled, and that´s how you should feell. you should be thrilled, ´cause you´re talking to someone that you have feelings for and is not just anyone. it´s someone important to you. or al telas thats what you think.

so last night, i went out with a friend to a party, and we spent the whole night talking, we only danced one song, all the others were talking and it was great, i think that i said some things that i wanted to say and she did the same. i think.

i don´t feel at all ba d about going out with someone else than my girlfriend, ´cause my girlfriend doens´t like going out to party or anything. only family dinners and she doesn´t like that much either, soseh´s not much of a party girl.

i repeat, i "love" her but she´s just not what i need right now. at least not what i think i need. or what i think i want.

i want to go out at night and have a good time not thinking abvout a girlfriend i have who´s at home sleeping and that i have to be faithfull.

i want to go out at night and have a good time, and party, and dance, and talk, and just be happy, withouth having to think about something else. just enjoy the moment.

so go out and enjoy the moment. just cherrish it, savor it. and be happy that you have that moment for youself and no one can take it from you. it´s yours.

so that whatever will happen will happen. accept it. and just keep on living. one step at a time. and from time to time looking at where your path is taking you. but on step at a time.

just go on.

CheerS!

posted by Vrolfak @ 1:54 AM