Sunday, May 22, 2005

one or the other

So... back to posting hehehe...

I got an unconfortable decision to make. well it really isn´t THAT important but I don´t wanna let my friends down, so...

One friend asked me to go with her for the weekend to someplace, (it really doen´t matter where) but in this weekend another friend is having her birday party, and I want to go . Not to mention that i told her I´d go. so wich one i let down?

And on what basis do I make the decision? by who I like better? by who is better to me? by wich one is more important to me?, by turns?... by what?

It´s inevitable to let one of them down, so wich one is it going to be?... I got no idea


CheerS!

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Humans

Human behaviour, do you understand it? do you even know what it is?

i believe that i can understand it or read it more than the usual guy. Have in mind that it´s not about predicting what someone would do. Humans are unpredictable, emotions are too volatile to be predicted, ok, yeah so some times you know what someone will do given the circumstances, you know your friends and you know what´s the most likely thing they will do, but that´s just it, the most likely, it´s not the one they´re gonna do for sure, it never is. Even ourselves do this things sometimes that we didn´t think we would/could do. after something happens, you remember it (most of the time) then after it´s gone, you start thinking about it in your mind, looking at it, inspecting it, studying it, reading it, and in all this process some layers start to lift and you start seeing the "truth", but then you analize this truth and after a while, another layer lifts making you see another "truth", and the process repeats itself for as long as you want. the thing is knowing when to stop. cause you can keep going and of course!, along all this process you have also added your own ingredient into the mix, IMAGINATION, what woud humans do if they didn´t have imagination? imagination is the key to the world we have right now. we have what we have right now because of imagination. ok, so now back to the point.

thinking that you know why someone did something, and in general, information gives you power, i just wish that this information would come faster not hours or days after whatever situation happened. in any case, what´s done is done, and like Jhonny Walkers slogan, "keep walking". keep going, keet one foot in front of the other, and then another time, and then again, and again, and keep going...... keep walking.

As humans there´s some things that we don´t like, hate, despise, whatever. as my brother tells me, i have to learn how to be less condescending, not to accept other behaviours if i don´t like it. and really? why do i have to accept others bahaviours? when they are hurting me, when i´m not living a happy life. and i mean it not as an unhappy life, but just as a life that gives no reward, no happiness, no joy of living, no feling that it´s worth to be alive!

But this is just mirrors and shadows, (read my last post), cause i know that if I had someone who loves me, not in a familiar way of loving, but as a lovers love. So i would be thinking that life is precious and SO worth living, and i´d be so happy, and would look upon averything as if everything is perfect. but then again it would be just mirrors and shadows, or should i say smoke and mirrors?

either way, there´s no escaping it. life is what you make of it. (yeah i know you´ve heard this before, so shoot me) so just keep walking.

CheerS!

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Mirrors and Shadows

4 years ago I read a bookby Terry Goodkind called "Wizard´s first rule" from the Sword of Truth Series. In this book he speaks about the first rule of the wizard (obviously), the thing is. that it semed SO right, what he said about it was so to the point and so true, and the best thing is that it´s real it´s not just true in the book, but really true in life, in anybodys life. It goes like this:

Wizard´s first rule:

"People believe in what they believe in because they are afraid of it, or because they want it to be true"

Did you read it? did you analize it? do you get it? read it again...

Just think about it and you´ll see that it happens everyday everywhere. ok, ok, so you don´t do it... *CoughBSCough*.... but other ppl do, Right? so you can see that it does happen everyday, everywhere.

We all go through our days with our fear and all that, so we´re always subject to how our fears change the information that where receiving, we´ll let´s not say "change" but let´s leave it at "modify". Our fears modify the information that we get everyday, depending on the fear we have and how big this fear is. Or our emotions will make this information change also ´cause we are humans and ´cause of the way that our brain works. -at least the way i think it works- by association, so you´re feeling VERY happy and you are looking at a picture, so everytime you look at that picture you feel happy. and you have no idea why you feel happy when you look at that particular picture, or the other way around, you are feeling SO miserable and someone is talking to you about a movie or whatever, (a movie that you have not seen) so you start "hating" that movie and you´re convinced that it´s the wort movie ever. or any other thing you associate with that miserable feeling.

Anyway, mirrors and shadows is just that, believing in something ´cause you want it to be real. modifying every bit of information that comes into your mind to convince yourself that what you think is the way it goes. Just ´cause you want it to be like that. But let´s face it, seldomly do things go the way we want it, so...

ok, so I´ll ask you this... do you have the capacity to look at yourself from another persons point of view? ok, ok. most of you answered yes here. ok ok.... so now, did you just answer yes ´cause you want to believe that you actually can? or do you really believe that you can?... so can you?

Can you look at yourself from another persons point of view?

CheerS!